Sarah Am-brrr-Gay

I keep thinking about what it’ll be like when i move out. I want my own place, my own “home”. I want people to come over and we’ll have movie nights and cute lil parties…like not PaRTIES i mean like the good old day parties. the ones where we’d play video games and have a good laugh. I miss those days. When they were simpler. idk I miss the potlucks and the hangouts. They were fun. for some reason it seems possible when you don’t have to ask your parents in advance to see if you can have friends over and such…

i feel like i have a long way to go before I can have those special times…although by that time, most of the people I want to spend those times with now…. probably won’t even be around to spend those times with me. hopefully i’ll have people around for that :3 

maybe i’ll have a room mate and stuff, I kinda hope I’m dating someone around that time. living with someone I care about would be nice..I’m getting a head of myself though lol.

I feel like I’d be less bratty if I were out on my own thinking about my own worries. -_-

I really am a brat… and the thing is…I really don’t know how to get out of that habit. I try to but theres this lil green monster in me that tells me to do other wise. it makes my insides feel like its about to cut a bitch. *sigh sigh*

lol

I need some new lessons in self control. :p
steps to being a better person… I think I’ll be closer to that better sarah when I get that apartment >:D
lol probably not…

Watch how I soar…”

I’m going to have a random trip to seattle.

dressed up and everything :3

I want to be more spontaneous.

or at least be spontaneous every now and again

:D

I can’t wait till everything is ok.

i walked over to the young adult teen section of B&N
and looked over at the John Green books and inside it
I found a note saying “DFTBA” and such :p

I <3 nerdfighters

very much embarrassing.

if you can…please stop.

no more night like tonight.

Nooo more -_-

well… actually food wise was good, so was watching the office…

but you know what I mean.. >.>

no more

Thinking about it, a lot of the things I want for christamas can’t be bought.

I mean really I would like things that would make my life simpler. =_=

but if I were to ask for something I really needed (for those who are planning to get me things….secret santas or what not)

I like vintage things but… can’t think of anything in particular that I would like….so that info is a bit useless..

over all books, journals, art supplies, stuff for sewing, or a lamp for my desk would be nice. lol

Thats if you plan to buy things for me. 
I very much like things hand made… like a card hahah xD
The more meaningful the better :3
or jewelry would be nice. stay away from gold and cheesy flowers. anything that looks old(like worn out) I like. or feathers :3
Scarves, hats, gloves.
particularly scarves that are like one solid color.
hats, I like those bomber hats or the ones with the lil pom poms on the top.
and gloves…as long as they aint itchy lol I’m happy with em. 
oh… or PJ pants…cuz if anyone has seen mine lately they are torn up.

:p 

Well I’m not too picky about anything, so what ever you get me is fine.
I think the best gifts are the meaningful ones though, xD

I just thought this might help those who are planning to get me gifts… I very much hope the people I am getting gifts for will post a christmas list..cuz I only have a few ideas for some of them.

I need a change in my life.

One that will actually change it.

hm… its not enough to just think positive things.

>.>

now i have to figure out what to do next.

that I bore myself =_=